redgiki wrote:I identified the cause of my turmoil, confronted it, faced the angst and disappointment along with two weeks of extremely intermittent sleep (some nights up all night, some up just half the night)... and lost ten pounds without thinking about it. And my lean weight remains largely unchanged.
I'm not happy about how I got there, but the scale is at 213.5 today, down from 218 at the start, and today I'm fasting for additional spiritual strength to make it through my crisis. Keep smiling!
We are the cause of our reactions. For instance I can think, you have caused me to reply, in this particular way. When in reality, its totally my choice. Even if due to whatever circumstances, I had to reply, my thoughts and feelings about that reply are mine alone. My choice.
The ways I could reply and think and feel about it, are infinite, limited only by my own creativity and imagination. I might be strongly conditioned, in the habit of easily being angry, frustrated, so I would unconsciously reply that way. As those would be the filters I habitually think through, its all I would tend to see, think is possible. Then I could justify it, by saying its the natural, best thing to do, I had no choice, you made me angry and frustrated, I didn't deny it, I faced it, dealt with it, you, now it is done, another success, my beliefs, my habit, satisfied and confirmed.
Someone might say I could deal with that scenario perhaps more successfully, beneficially, totally differently, without becoming frustrated or angry, and simultaneously learn to empower my self, my spirit, by carefully choosing to be totally in charge of my reactions, my expression, by creating new habits/beliefs. My conditioning, catch twenty two feedback, would make that very difficult for me to see, perhaps even threatening to see if I identify myself with my conditioning/beliefs/habits. There are unlimited, infinite reactions to facing and dealing with any scenario. There are unlimited habits and beliefs I can adopt. We, through our belief shaped choices, express that limit. We have been bestowed with the gift, the completely unlimited miracle of imagination and creativity. And the choice of what we do with it.
Redgiki, I respect your resiliance and determination, your Spirit.